Posted in October 2009

Was Blind but Now I See

Text: Mark 10:46-52Creative Commons License
Author’s Note: In preparation for this sermon, I asked the congregation to wear blindfolds for the first half of the service. Before they put them on, I asked them to take the most valuable object in their wallet, maybe a $100 bill, maybe a credit card, maybe a picture of their child, whatever in their wallet is most valuable to them.  Take it out and set it somewhere within arms reach. They listened to the rest of the service not being able to see the thing they value most.

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It's amazing how different a service sounds when you can't see

You’re probably getting tired of these blindfolds.  Well, good.  That’s the point. Maybe you’ve heard the saying, “I hear and I forget.  I see and I remember.  I do, and I understand.” This is your chance to do something, to step inside the experience of someone whose life is radically different from your own.  His name was Bartimaeus, and he was blind. It’s most likely that he was not born blind, but lost his sight to injury or sickness.  I want you to walk a moment in his shoes.  Actually, he probably didn’t have shoes, so I want you to imagine yourself sitting on a mat.

It’s the same mat you always sit on, in the same place you usually sit, begging for hand-outs from the passersby.  The twisted rag over your eyes serves a double purpose.  You learned long ago that people find your eyes disturbing, so you cover them.  The frayed and dirty rag lets people see your need from far away and helps them get close enough to drop a few coins on the mat.  You’ve begged from this spot for years, so it’s all familiar: the cool stone wall at your back that gives shade through the worst of the day, the taste of the dirt kicked up by the people, the smell of animals and sweat, the half-heard conversations.

It’s all familiar, until the crowd starts to close in.  Their voices rise in pitch and volume.  You pull your feet in close so that no one steps on you.  You try to ask what’s going on, but no one answers.  So you do what you do best.  You listen.  Suddenly, you hear a word that ties your stomach in knots.  Jesus.  Jesus is coming.  Here!  Right down this road. You try to catch your breath as your mind whirls.

You’ve been hearing about him for months now. People wondered about him as they walked home alone. They argued about him with their friends.  It’s amazing what you overhear because no one notices you’re there.  And you had begun to piece together something about this man, that he was a prophet, a man of God, a healer, perhaps even the messiah. You’ve heard so much about him, and now his name stirs hope within you, a hope so deep that you dared not even admit it to yourself.

Now the crowd is pressing close, and the hum increases again.  He’s here. He’s close.  So you do what you do best.  You do what you’ve been trained to do by years of people trying desperately to ignore you.  You grab their attention.  You make them look you in the eye.  “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me.  Son of David, have mercy on me!”  Again and again you call out, and the people in front of you tell you to be quiet so they can hear, but you shout all the louder, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me! Have mercy on me!  Have mercy.  Mercy…”

But it’s too late.  He’s gone. And you start to cry.  Someone reaches down and touches your shoulder but you push them away.  Then another hand grabs yours and now you hear their words, “Be happy.  Stand up!  He’s calling you.”  You may be blind, but your legs work fine, so you jump to your feet, throw off your cloak, and push through the crowd as gentle hands guide you.  Then two hands grab yours and don’t let go.  The crowd goes silent.

“What do you want me to do for you?” What do you ask? How do you say it? “Do I ask for my sight? What if he says no?  Is that all I really want? I don’t want to be a beggar any more. I want to follow him, to learn from him. But what if he laughs? What if they all laugh? Who do I think I am? Who do I think he is?”

It’s so quiet you can hear your own heart race. So you do what you do best. You swallow your pride and you ask. “Rabbi, I want to see.” A murmur runs through the crowd, and a few do laugh. They scoff at the presumption. Then they all go silent, listening for his reply. “Go,” he says, “Your faith has healed you.”

Your hand shakes as you reach up to pull the rag from your eyes.  (Go ahead. Remove your blindfold.) And you see the colors: blue sky, yellow sand, brown wood, grey stone, green leaves, and those eyes.  You see his smiling eyes for just a second, and then the crowd erupts.  They want to touch you.  They want to see you.  They want to know if it’s true.  “Were you really blind?  Was it all a stunt?  Did he really heal you? What did it feel like?  What did he say to you?”  They push and pull you and you lose sight of him in the crowd, but then you see him again and you push forward. The world is beautiful, but he is more.  The attention is intoxicating, but he is more.  You’re not going to lose him.  He’s your teacher and you are going to follow. (pause)

Some folks hear that story, and say, “The squeaky wheel gets the grease.”  And that’s true as far as it goes.  Do you imagine Bartimaeus was the only person in that crowd who needed healing?  Of course not.  But he was the one who was healed because he made noise.  So it is true, but there’s more to it than that.  Bartimaeus didn’t let his limitations define him. Sure he was blind, but his voice worked.  His legs worked.  He didn’t let the years of people calling him a cripple trick him into thinking he was helpless. But it’s even more than that.

There were people in that crowd who needed healing, but they didn’t have what Bartemaeus had. They didn’t have his experience. He was blind, so he learned to listen. He was ignored, so he learned to grab people’s attention. Most people said no, so he learned to be relentless. He had to beg, so he learned to swallow his pride. So when that day finally came, everyone else stood by the side of the road and watched their messiah walk on by. They watched their healing walk on by. But he shouted. He would not be silenced. He jumped up. He stepped forward, and he asked. But there’s more.

There’s something here that can’t be explained by his experience. In fact, you would expect the exact opposite from someone who had been through what he had. Bartimaeus had hope. He lost his sight, forced to beg, mistreated and ignored. He had every reason to hate God. He had every reason to believe that there was no God. But when the day came, he heard people talking about Jesus, and something in their words gave him hope. He had faith enough to speak up and step out in front of all those people. He was brave enough to hope for help from someone he’d never met, on the chance that the words he’d heard about him might be true. You could say it was just desperation, but that doesn’t explain why he called Jesus Rabbi.

We have many other healing stories in the Bible, but normally, the person get’s healed and goes home. Sometimes they go shouting the news, sometimes they don’t even bother to say thanks. But Bartimaeus follows Jesus down the road. He had hope, he had faith, and in spite of everything he had gone through, he believed. Personally, I think that’s why Jesus draws attention to it. He says, “Go. Your faith has healed you.” Your faith has healed you.

It was a tiny faith, like an ember at the top of a candle. If he had bold faith, he would have stood in the middle of the road to meet Jesus. If he’d had great faith, he would have left his mat long before and gone to seek Jesus. It was just a little faith, but it was real. In spite of all he’d endured, that tiny flicker of hope still burned, and Jesus turned that tiny ember into a flame.

So Bartimaeus didn’t get a miracle because he made the most noise. He made the most noise because he didn’t let his handicap define him. He made the most noise because his limitations didn’t crush him. They sharpened him. He made the most noise because in spite of everything he had endured, a flicker of faith still stirred in his heart. He was blind, but that day he was the only one in the crowd who could see. All Jesus did was make his outside match his inside.

Author’s Note: If you’re wondering why I asked them to put their most valuable object somewhere within arms reach, trust me, so were they.  They found out when we got to the offering, which I introduced as follows:

I’d like you to close your eyes again.  Last time, I promise.  As you close your eyes, I have a question for you.  How much of your church can you still see? I bet most of you, without opening your eyes, could point your finger at the cross. (Many nodded.) If you have a friend who always sits in the same spot, I bet most of you could turn in your seat right now and point your nose at that person so that when you opened your eyes their face would be the very first thing you would see.  (A few actually did, causing chuckles) But very few of you could reach out your hand right now and grab a pencil on your first try.  (Grumbles. A couple frowns.) What I’d like you to do is this.  Get your hand ready. Now grab that most important thing from your wallet. If you got it on your first try, hold it up in the air. (95% of the congregation raised their hands) Go ahead and open your eyes.

We are bombarded every day with a practically infinite amount of sensory information.  The reason we are not overwhelmed by the humming in the lights or the feel of fabric on our skin is called a Reticular Activating System. It’s a filter that only passes information that’s relevant to us.  Relevant means something close to us in time or space, carrying emotional content, or our intentional focus.  This is why so few could grab the pencil, but everyone could grab their most valuable object. Was the pencil any further away? (No.) It just wasn’t relevant.

So back to our original question, how much of our church can you still see after you close your eyes?  I can guarantee you there are a few here today who can see things you can’t because they were here yesterday for all church work day.  Amy can see the top of the choir cabinets downstairs because she climbed on top of them to paint. Merlyn can see the bottom of that back pew because she climbed underneath it to clean. Bev can see that hymnal rack because she emptied it, cleaned it, and put everything back organized.  There’s a spot right up here I can see  that I bet no one else in this room can, because I spent five minutes trying to scrape the gunk off it.

If you want to see more, give.  Give your time.  Give your talent.  Give your treasure.  God doesn’t need our gifts.  We need to give because in the words of our Moderator, Jon, “Involvement cements your faith.”

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The Opposite of Love isn’t Hate

Text: Job 23Wordle: The Opposite of Love isn't HateCreative Commons License
Quote: “If you’re going through hell, keep going.” Winston Churchill

So, let me tell you about my week.  I’ve been here one week, and this is what I’ve seen: a life threatening illness, a financial cry for help, widows and widowers smiling through the pain of their recent loss, families struggling to put the pieces back together after a divorce, homebound elders in need of care, and friends grieving over formerly active members who just aren’t involved any more. One week!

Some of you are feeling a little anxious right now. “Is he feeling overwhelmed already? Is he going to leave?”  No way.  This week was awesome!  You know why?  Because you’re still talking.  You’re still here.  You’re just as messed up as the rest of the world, but you’re talking about it with each other instead of hiding.  You’re here working on it, instead of sleeping it off. You are a wonderful church!

Look at our reading today, from the 23rd chapter of Job. You all know Job, right?  The story goes that Devil challenged God to a bet.  The Devil claimed that the only reason Job loved God was because God had blessed him with wealth.  So God gave permission to take Job’s wealth away.  The Devil took everything, even Job’s children, but Job didn’t crack.  He grieved, but he didn’t turn against God. That wasn’t enough for the Devil.  He claimed that the only reason Job loved God was because God had protected his health.  So God gave permission to take Job’s health away.  But Job still didn’t crack.

He sat on a pile of ash, scraping at the sores that covered his body, and didn’t say a word. Even when his wife left him, he said nothing.  Finally, after 7 days of silence, he opens his mouth, and what comes out is something between a complaint and an argument.  He starts by wishing he had never been born, and then uses that as the foundation for his argument.  Why does God allow suffering?  If life is so horrible, if the pain is so great that you just want to die, why would God force us to keep living?

Up until this point, Job’s friends have been amazing.  They hear the news right away, which means they keep in touch.  They all arrive together, so that caring for Job doesn’t become a burden.  They sit in the dust with him, get right down at his level.  They set aside their pride and their comfort for the sake of their friend.  And they don’t say anything.  For seven days they don’t say a word. When Job is finally ready to speak, they listen.  They let him get it all out, and they don’t interrupt. Job’s friends are amazing!  And then they ruin it.

Brothers and sisters, when someone’s life is such a broken mess that they ask, “Why won’t God just let me die?” They don’t want answers.  They want less pain.  You don’t just wake up one day and say, “Hey, how about I commit suicide!”  Suicide is what happens when the amount of pain in your life exceeds your ability to cope.  In religious circles, we call it despair, and it is the root of half the pain we see on TV every night.  When one of your friends cries out in despair, they don’t want simplistic answers.

“I feel horrible about my life, but when I eat I don’t feel so bad. When I’m drunk I can’t think about it.  When I have sex, I feel good, at least for a little while.”  It doesn’t have to be anything fancy.  I’ve known guys who use hunting as an escape, or their boat, or exercise, or reading a book.  In all of these situations, the one thing they don’t want is a lecture.  The behavior is just a symptom of the deeper problem.  “I hate myself. I hate my life.”  But far too often we ignore the problem, because it’s too hard, and it hits way too close to home.  So we give easy answers instead instead.  That’s what Job’s friends did.  They let him have his say, and then they opened their mouths.

What follows is 20 chapters of back and forth, a biblical argument that could serve as a template for every useless theological discussion in the history of the world.  They start out friendly, then get superior, then resort to sarcasm.  They use straw man arguments and personal attacks. They blame the victim.  But by far their favorite tactic is to say exactly what they said before just using more words and more volume.  Sound familiar?

Finally, God has to interrupt and shout them all down.  But God doesn’t address the friends. He yells at Job. That hardly seems fair. Job’s the victim here.  God made a bet, so Job has to suffer, and he can’t even know why?  Well, Job isn’t exactly faultless.  Let’s go back and hear his words again.

“Even today my complaint is bitter; God’s hand is heavy in spite of my groaning.  If only I knew where to find him.  If only I could go to his dwelling! I would state my case before him and fill my mouth with arguments. I would find out what he would answer me, and consider what he would say.”

Do you hear the touch of arrogance there?  Job has been arguing for 20 chapters so far, and he’s getting heated.  His friends just keep pushing him and pushing him until he’s saying, “I wish I could go knock on God’s door.  I’d tell him, and he’d answer me.” In the course of 20 chapters, we’ve gone from despair to pride.  It’s interesting to me that those two are never far apart.  They’re two sides of the same coin.  Despair rejects God’s act of creation.  I hate myself.  I hate my life. I wish I had never been born.  But pride rejects our place in creation.  If I were in charge, things would be different. Things would be better.  They’re both ultimately a rejection of God.

Job’s only faults are despair and pride, but they are enough to divide him from God.  That’s what the Devil really wanted all along.  God and Job loved each other, and so he came up with a bet, a trick, a lie.  Do you think the Devil cares about the theological conundrum of suffering?  He just saw a relationship and wanted to break it.  And it almost worked.  First Job falls into despair, and then into pride.  Toward the end of the argument, he’s not really talking to God any more.  He’s yelling at a caricature of God that he’s created in his mind.  The relationship is nearly gone, when God does the one thing no one expected he would ever do.

God speaks.  Up until this point in the story, God has been in heaven and Job has been on earth and only the Devil has walked in both places.  But now God breaks through into Job’s world and his voice rings out a challenge. “Who is this that questions my wisdom?  Brace yourself, and answer me.  Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?”  And so begins a pounding torrent of questions. “Have you ever called the morning?  Can you hold back the stars?”  Question after question.  You see, God has to break the pride before he can heal the despair.

You can hear it in Job’s reply, “I am nothing.  How could I ever find the answers?”  You hear that?  That’s despair speaking.  Pride was just the symptom, masking the real problem.  Once again God speaks from the whirlwind.  But this time he points toward the two greatest beasts of creation, behemoth and leviathan.  Job has rejected creation, so God holds creation in front of his eyes in all its might and beauty.

And Job replies, “You ask, ‘Who is this that questions my wisdom with ignorance?’ It is I.  And I was talking about things I did not understand, things far too wonderful for me.”  Did you hear that?  “It is I.”  “Things far too wonderful for me.”  He’s back.  He’s still sad.  He’s still confused.  But he doesn’t hate himself and he doesn’t hate God.  And then at the very end comes the verse, so small that for years I missed it, chapter 42 verse 7. “After the Lord had finished speaking to Job…”

Did you get that?  After Job replies and the relationship is restored, God speaks again to Job, and this time we don’t have any record of the words, because they’re not for us.  Those words are only for God and Job.  Who knows?  Maybe Job got his answers.  Maybe he didn’t. But he got his faith back.  He got his life back.  Because God did the one thing no one ever expected.  God entered the story.

Christians, we are so blessed.  Because what Job longed for, we see clearly.  Because once again, God entered the story.  When we look at Jesus, we see God as God truly is. Vulnerable. Despised and rejected.  Hung on a cross where he cries, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”  This is God. God is not the puppet master, portioning out pain according to some secret purpose.  God is not our enemy.  To those trapped in despair, God says, “Look, I suffer too. I’m on your side.”  To those trapped in pride he says, “Look at me, I’m no threat to you.”

Maybe you’re hurting today.  Then follow Job’s example and complain to God.  Maybe you’re angry.  Then yell at God.  Even an argument is still communication.  How many of you have seen Fiddler on the Roof?  Remember Tevya?  Talked to God, complained to God, laughed with God, and when his whole life fell apart and he didn’t have words to describe his pain, what did he do? He turned his eyes toward God and asked, “Why?  Why? Why?”  Even that is a prayer.  And he didn’t ask those questions alone.  Just like Job, he asked his questions in the middle of a community.

Look around you.  This is your community.  These are your friends.  This is the place where it’s safe to ask the questions no one can really answer. I’ve only been here a week, and I already see it in you.  When it’s time to pass the peace, we have to start signing a hymn to get you to sit back down. When it’s time to share joys and concerns, you make yourselves vulnerable to each other.  Even when it’s hard, you don’t give up, and you don’t walk alone.

My friend the counselor tells me that the single greatest success factor for those who are trying to put their lives back together is their support network.  No surprise, there.  We are made in the image of God, and the heart of God is a triune community of freely given love. We were made for relationship, with God and with each other.

It’s ok to argue with someone you love, as long as you make up afterward.  It’s even ok to argue in front of children as long as they see you resolve the conflict positively. Tears can be honest.  Complaints can be honest.  Even rage can be honest.  A relationship can survive those things, because the opposite of love isn’t anger, or even hate.  The opposite of love is indifference.

Benediction: “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil.”  Did you catch that word?  Through.  I walk through the valley of the shadow of death.  Not set a tent and camp out there. Not lay down and die there. Walk through, and out the other side.  With God in our hearts and our friends at our side, we can do all things through God who strengthens us.

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Welcome to Saugatuck!

I love the boardwalk, and the colors are just starting to turn.

Check out the boardwalk, and the fall colors! Photo by Caribb shared under a Creative Commons license.

Wow, what an amazing week. Kinda crazy seeing your name in three local papers in the same week. Either I’m famous, or folks around here are really bored! Actually, that’s not true. I’ve only been here in Saugatuck a week or so, but I’m already getting the feeling that these people care about each other. It’s a tight-knit town, where people actually read the paper.

Here’s the link to my favorite of the three articles, by the Local Observer.

Someone even recognized me when I was out for supper! (The Commercial Record sent out a photographer, but they didn’t post the story online.)  It’s been a joy getting to know the staff here at the church. We laugh a lot and still manage to get stuff done. Quite a few church members have invited me out for dinners too, a great way to get to know people and learn some more of these new names.  Thank you, everyone, for a wonderful first week.

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